As I sit here at the kitchen table, suppose to be working on a research paper (that mind you I haven't even started) my mind is just a racing. My mind is jumping around several subjects at once, from my uncle and what he is enduring, to house is a wreck, from there it seemed to go to bills, to the melt down my 10 year old had at JCPenney's tonight, to my weight problem then to am I being all to my family/husband that I need to be, and once again to am I failing as a parent? We all have days where between kids melting down, the dishes piled high and not a clean thing in the house, makes us second guess where are focus should be. Someone once told me that there are days you just need to let the housework pile up and take the time to just play. I honestly cannot remember the last time I did that. I am usually rushing home so that I can relieve my mother in law (which is awesome by the way), because she comes straight from a 8 to sometimes 10 hour 3rd shift job and keeps my girls when Brian and I are at work. Once I get home, then its like a marathon most days; get dinner ready, feed the girls, clean the kitchen, pick up around the house. Then at some point before bedtime we will have a meltdown with the older of the two girls,which sadly is a constant battle most day. Then bath time, bed time and then I continue running either school work or some other type of housework that didn't get completed or may not have even got started! By time a stop for a moment some nights its midnight and I just go to bed, all to start over again in 6 hours. There is no wonder I am tired and have bags under my eyes. I can't even seem to find the time to breathe, I am always stressed. I say all of that to say I am completely unfocused on what God has intended for me to focus on. Yes I work full time and go to school full time, but that is not my number one goal in life. God created me and he has saved me more times then I would like to admit some days. I owe him all the glory and well these days that has been real difficult for me to get too. Some folks would tell me, well you should give up something school or work. Well as much as I would love to stay home full time with my girls, right now is not an option. I have a great support system in my family. I don't think I could take on anything additional at this point. All I need to do is get refocused, put my eyes, heart and life back in God.
I opened my Bible up in the midst of this post and John 14 was what I opened it straight to. I have never fully studied each book of the bible, and John is one I am not familiar with at all. But as I begin to read the verses, they just seemed to work with this post. So enjoy:
John 14: 27-30
"I am leaving you with a gift-- peace of mind and heart. And the peace I give is a gift the world cannot give. So don't be troubled or afraid. Remember what I told you: I am going away, but I will come back to you again. If you really loved me, you would be happy that I am going to the Father, who is greater than I am. I have told you these things before they happen so that when they do happen, you will believe. I don't have much more time to talk to you, because the ruler of this world approaches. He has no power over me, but I will do what the Father requires of me, so that the world will know that I love the Father. Come, let's be going."
Now again let me say I have not studied the book of John. But I do know that out of this verse I get this: I have to show the world that I love God, I have to be willing to fail in the world's eyes even if it's only to focus time on my relationship with God. For our Father is coming back one day! And I really think if he had the choice of stepping on toys all over my messy house, or walking in my home and feeling the peace and love for him all around. I would like to think he would choose the later of the two, because he tells us that, the peace he gives to us is one the world cannot give. So are you at peace when your home is in complete order but no solid relationship with God? Or is your life a mess per say, but you have a wonderful relationship with God? Everyone has crazy days, some more then others. But remember to keep God as your focus, and if you do that then the peace he gives us will help us stay focused on the other tasks in our lives. BUT HE HAS TO BE THE CENTRAL OF IT ALL!
Thanks for reading my unorganized post....he he
Hope you enjoyed and just maybe it was encouraging to someone!
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